On Sunday I went with my best friend and her husband to their church, Redeemer Presbyterian Church in downtown Indianapolis. The church service was very different than what I am used to, but was beautiful and reflective. They had the congregation read a Prayer of Confession together, and the words rang too true in my own heart:
Father, you have laid out your love for us; you have explained your being through the natural world, through your Word, and through you Son. You have given each of us multiple signs of your provision, and we have seen you work miracles both great and small in our lives.
But we have not understood,
and we have hardened our hearts to your goodness.
We cannot believe that you will be faithful today
as you were yesterday.
As each calamity of life strikes us,
we fear that you will not show up.
As we reach out for each possible blessing,
we wonder if you will snatch it from us.
Father, help us to trust your finished work in the resurrection
of Jesus your son, even as we must experience this finished work
as a process manifested in the moments of our daily lives.
Make us dependent on you.
We desire to be fixed and therefore not need you anymore.
Yet Jesus, who was perfectly sanctified,
said that He could do nothing by Himself
except what he saw the Father doing.
Father we confess that we are completely dependent on you for:
our food and shelter
our love for you and for others
our strength to get out of bed
our ability to forgive
our soft hearts
our hearing ears, and
our seeing eyes.
We trust you in all these things to provide again and again to eternity. Even now, as we try to confess in humility, help us.
(Redeemer Presbyterian Church, February 28, 2010)